Sunday, May 8, 2011

My Feelings about Tomorrow

It's Sunday, and tomorrow, I begin Senior Project. I feel relieved that I'm finished with classes, excited that I get to spend three weeks writing, and scared that I won't accomplish what I want to do. I'm especially anxious about the first week. The rough draft is the hardest part to write, and I'm writing all six in one week. I'm also worried about how people will react the essay I will write about the church, through which I will reveal my current state of agnosticism. I know I shouldn't be worried about what people will think until I have the essays done, but I'm worried nonetheless. I'm definitely worried that I won't be able to do this -- I'm putting a lot on the line here. I have to trust myself, which is something I find difficult to do. I hope that completing this project will make me realize that I can trust myself.
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  1. KarinMay 9, 2011 at 12:20 PM

    Remember Emerson! "What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think." After Thomas Wolfe published Look Homeward, Angel,(have you read it? so good) people in his home town burned his book, but he kept writing his brilliant and important books. Think of all the books we love which have been banned. It is a brave thing to write your truth, and I know you can and will do it.

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  2. Haley PetersMay 9, 2011 at 12:41 PM

    Thank you, Karin.

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  3. LaurieMay 9, 2011 at 5:57 PM

    Haley, writing is always so scary, so your feelings are very normal and show you want to do something worthy. That's so great. It's easy for me to say, I know, but try every day to trust that you will do/write what you can best do/write that day. Relax and enjoy this as an opportunity, not as a test of you or who you are. And by the way, every writer fears exposing and/or hurting those they care about; I understand how you feel about writing about the church--you will do what's right for you, when it's right for you. And that's all anyone can expect. You go, girl!

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  4. Haley PetersMay 9, 2011 at 7:25 PM

    Thank you so much to both Laurie and Karin for your thoughtful and honest encouragements. They really are much appreciated.

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